so many topics

I can't decide what to blog about today.

I've thought about talking about my aim to lose the baby weight (and abit more). Because I'm feeding 2 children, I have to be careful to keep my calorie intake up so that I can make good milk. However, getting the balance right is difficult so I thought I'd try and lose the weight through exercise. I'm also aware that I'm quite tired right now so I thought I'd build it up slowly. Mostly through walking to nursery to pick up little i and playing wii Just Dance 2. Yesterday I thought I'd up it a bit and walked a couple of miles with little m in a sling. Today I hurt. I hurt bad. But little i had asked me to pick her up from nursery with the bicycle and trailer and, not wanting to let her down, this is what I did. Nursery isn't far away but biking with a trailer on 2 children is hard work! I'm hoping for a good weight loss tomorrow.

I thought about talking about the change in little m. She's been such an easy baby but today she's been a bit unsettled. I say a bit because she's no where near difficult but she's been sucking her hand a lot, wanting to feed more than before and generally preferring to be held than put down. Given that I was tired from yesterdays walking, I couldn't work out why she'd changed so much. I was even pondering giving her a dummy. Little i had a dummy but I'd rather she hadn't. so I wandered off to the coffee machine and put 2 expresso's in my latte and the problem suddenly dawned on me. I dug out my copy of 'The wonder weeks' which is all about the develop mental leaps that baby's go through in the first year and sure enough - she's started going through the first leap. Knowing that, I then knew that all she wanted was a bit of reassurance so I gave up trying to put her down and just enjoyed the cuddles.

Finally, I thought about talking about happiness. Sometimes I feel a bit like I shouldn't mention how happy I am with my life these days because I know that others are not happy and I don't want to rub it in their faces. But I thought today, by keeping quiet about my happiness I am denying my friends and family - the people who are making me happy. So yeah, I'm happy or contented, which ever sits easiest with you. I'm tired and achy but I'm happy because I have 2 lovely girls, a bloke who does tonnes for me, my family close by to lend a hand and some great friends to chat with.